What am I doing with my life?

None of us know.

I graduate high school in 5 months. And I have no idea what I’m doing after graduation. I know that I’m going to try and go to France, but what after that? What do I do when I get home? College? More traveling? Do I settle down and get married? Have kids? Get a job? What the fuck am I supposed to do? I’m the oldest, on almost every side of my family, I know there is a lot of weight and responsibility on my shoulders. My siblings, my cousins are all very troubled people, and I need to set a good example for them. But this in itself is just a burden.